Working , my respectful manager.. have being force to leave the company.. no longer to work with him anymore.. ! He's the one teach me a lot in sales industry . Its very happy to working with him.. He's good and nice. Because of some problem , he have no choice but have to leave . ><" ! Been working together with him since 2008 May until 2010 July . :)
Complicated relationship , being single for 4 years.. since 2006 Jun until 2010 Oct . Thinking to build a career before drop into a relationship . The times being single.. really fun . So freedom as well.. until i met her . Heard her story and her past . Yes , is really pity . But i love her not because of sympathy , is because i really love her. Not her beauty , but her personalities . In fews month we know each others , but for me.. it like few years . She totally get my personalities as well in short few month . :) So happy got someone truly understand me beside my best buddies . Actually i'm very complicated to be understand , but she did to know me . >< ! Although there is something happen between us . Surely , i cant give her up easily . My love for her still there , but not dare enough to reach to her . She got my attention all the times , but i pretend not . Wonder if she notice it or not . Most of the times , i wish she was around with me to enjoy the hapiness together . Sadness , i will bear myself.. i dont wish she drop into sad with me . I knew i should be the man to cheer her up , to care her , to be there for her , bring her hapiness , delete her sadness . Everytime when she told me that she no well , im pretty worries , wish can bring her to doctor , that what i can do.. but she always refuse it >< Her health are like my life.. my dear. Well , since she refuse it , its ok .. i know she might think she can handle it.. so im ok with it . I should respect her decision . :) and i dont like to force her . Sometimes maybe im too selfish , i kinda dont like when she always invite her friend to go out together with both of us . >"< . As a cancerian , i have many plan of romance for both of us . But everytime also got 3rd party >< haihz . Well , my emotional , she always try to calm me , my mother caring might reach to her , but one thing she might not know , most of cancerian personalities is almost the same with a girl , For example , easy jealous , negative thinking , complicated thinking ;) . Everytime she stab on my waist , i feel happy.. haha.. i think i love it .As she know , im a very loyal human.. ah ah ah.. well , im sure myself is too :) Is not easy for me to fall in love with someone and not easy for me to give up someone easily.. Maybe im not good in relationship yet.. ! We both start with a secret brom both side.. and now we both have many secret in our heart.. what a weird huh ? Hehe.. !!What i know just caring , bear her burden , cheer her up .. but most of the time are no use on her >< , help her always , protect her , never make her worry me .>< Wish she will be the women holding on my back to not let me fall .. ^_^ !But currently my heart is stabbed by a needle. Just waiting her to pull it out ><" And if she have needle inside too , wish she will direct me to the needle , so i can pull it out ^_^ "
Friends , long time didnt hang out with the ChibiMaru Team group . Seem like all of us de friendship getting very weak . Normally we hang out as a team and crazy as a team .. nowaday.. only left few of us . As a leader , i need to strenghten our friendship . :)
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